television will kill your soul. (whoa, harsh.)

i feel like i have so many ideas swimming around in my head but when i sit down to write, nothing comes out. there is too much. i cannot focus. i cannot form any actual outline or thoughtful topic. no one single discussion comes to mind because

i feel lost.

it's funny that my original blogpost was about inspiration, purpose and the confusion that these ideas or feelings can create.... instead this is what came out....

i am not going to watch television for one month. (this is random). but i have just decided. it is a complete waste of my time and for many years i did not even own a television. in fact, not having it as a lazy distraction was the best thing that ever happened to me! i remember the last time i caved and bought a $17, 12 inch tv while i was living in australia, and the only reason i bought it was because a good, old friend of mine was playing in the olympics and it was a must that i cheer her on! then, for months, it sat in the corner, unplugged, collecting dust. i actively did not turn it on.

you see, there is this idea of "complex fun" that i can really relate to. it is the idea of doing things that you love to entertain yourself during your down time but not having these things be mindless entertainment (such as tv). complex fun, for me, would be drawing, writing, arts and crafting, reading, running, creating, etc.. these things will be more fulfilling and inspiring in the long run. they will trigger happier feelings.

tv is only a way to turn your brain off, it is easy to shut down while not having to think about anything! the brain is not actively LEARNING or CREATING. WE are not actively GROWING. and think about this: how many times have we seen something beautiful or remote in nature and said, "that looks fake! it looks like something you would see in a movie" or "that looks like a picture!" ..... it is frightening that we automatically think about the replica of something, the copy of the real thing, the portrayal of something beautiful on film, not in real life.

i don't really watch that much television in the first place but now i will watch none. hopefully this experience will lend itself a creative hand in some projects i've been wanting to start for a while. procrastination will be your worst enemy in this game called life.

so, i am going to stop watchin' the tube. :) it's like lent, but not.