he who finds OM in his heart

"Awakening from this dream, he was overwhelmed by a feeling of great sadness. It seemed to him that he had spent his life in a worthless and senseless manner; he retained nothing vital, nothing in any way precious or worth while. He stood alone, like a shipwrecked man on the shore.

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When had he really been happy? When had he really experienced joy?

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Then he had felt in his heart: "A path lies before you which you are called to follow. The gods await you." 

And again as a youth when his continually soaring goal had propelled him in and out of the crowds of similar seekers, when he had striven hard to understand the Brahmin's teachings, when every freshly acquired knowledge only engendered a new thirst, then again, in the midst of his thirst, in the midst of his efforts, he had thought: Onwards, onwards, this is your path. 

He had heard this voice when he had left his home and chosen the life of the Samanas, and again when he had left the Samanas and gone to the Perfect One, and also when he left him for the unknown.

How long was it now since he had heard this voice, since he had soared to any heights?

How flat and desolate his path had been! How many long years he had spent without any lofty goal, without any thirst, without any exaltation, content with small pleasures and yet never really satisfied! 

Without knowing it, he had endeavored and longed all these years to be like all these other people, like these children, and yet his life had been much more retched and poorer than theirs, for their aims were not his, nor their sorrows his. 

This whole world of the Kamaswami people had been a game to him, a dance, a comedy which one watches.

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Were they not playing a game that had no end? Was it necessary to live for it?

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Then Siddhartha knew that the game was finished, that he could play it no longer. A shudder passed through his body; he felt as if something had died."


[Currently reading Siddhartha and having my mind blown every other sentence. Even as a seeker, this book is much more than most things I have come across. So simple and true, yet complex and thought-provoking. I would encourage a read if you so wish, my lovelies] 

may you always seek. may you always find. may you always summon a courage from the strength & joy within, for strength & joy within are an unbroken string leading to the heavens.