what would a girl do with out her dad?

:: someone said to me today ::

"it's never what you face but always how you handle it."

that someone was my father.

my amazing, brilliant, strong, loving, best friend of a father. he has helped me through so much. he has remained calm in the face of my anger, comforting in the face of my tears and understanding in the face of my hardest moments in life.

i am working on 'handling' life's 'situations' in a strong and reasonable way. and with a happy heart.

a true experiment of life; our only shot.

em:barking on what is 'up'

and now, a p-p-poem of sorts::

and now we embark, yet again
seemingly falling, crashing perhaps
but maybe we are just turned right side up and are actually falling toward the sky
and all the possibilities only 'up' can manifest.

she hung upside-down long enough
she began to believe she could walk on the sky.

today's possibilities are endless
worry less.

i am currently sitting outside in the sun, with leggings and a t-shirt on... In February... In Portland, Oregon.

What? wonderful.

Let's all just pause a moment and smile. Laugh. Hug the Earth and thank the Universe and all her power for giving us this day.

i am also currently unemployed. as of yesterday. and i've never been happier or more okay with a decision in my life. that was a hard ledge to jump off of. but, i trust that i have a parachute of some sort strapped to my back because i'm already off the edge!

i have been completely trapped for months. tied to a job i absolutely hated because it paid the bills. it was making me feel stifled, angry, resentful, bitter, tired, sloth-like and moody. that's a lot of shit i am not used to feeling. and for months, these feelings put me to bed at night and woke me up in the morning.

my soul needed a way out. it had been calling to me for so long to feed it with something worth feeling. something worth doing. something worth waking up in the morning for (not that my life and my loved ones aren't enough for that- but it needed more).

i don't enjoy admitting that my feelings were massively tied to a place of employment, but it's the truth. and for a lot of us, it's the truth.

WAKE UP is what it called to me. take a leap.

no, i don't know if i'll be okay.

no, i don't have any money.

and no, i don't know if my decision was the right one.

but what i do know it was imperative that i gave it a shot. i am trusting the universe today and every day. i am working on dis-attaching myself to the things that make this crazy society spin. i am revolting in joy and in faith.

i am loving and nurturing my soul. and it's awesome.

thank you.

i love this journey!

We have lived our lives by the assumption that what was good for us would be good for the world. We have been wrong. We must change our lives so that it will be possible to live by the contrary assumption, that what is good for the world will be good for us. And that requires that we make the effort to know the world and learn what is good for it. --Wendell Berry

Artisans for Haiti Benefit!

Our second annual Artisans for Haiti benefit night is coming up! Saturday the 24th!
Come one, come all! It's going to be a great night, there will be dancing, wine, great food, fun band, games, silent and live auction and more!



Come support a great cause and the children of Haiti!

www.artisanforhaiti.org

dope.

nw represent.

do good with intention

you got a heart i want.

"science tries to determine underlying patterns in chaotic systems. weather. ocean currents. blood flow. that kind of thing. but it turns out that there are few things more chaotic the beat of the human heart. speeding up, slowing down. pretty face. flight of stairs. it's always changing depending on what's happening to us out there. it's an erractic son of a bitch. but underneath all of that bumpa-da-bump mess there is a pattern. truth is, is that it's love.

the most important thing about love is that we choose to give it. and we choose to receive it. making it the least random act in the entire universe.

transcends blood. transcends betrayal. and all of the dirt that makes us human. if you can figure that out, the world ain't got nothin' on ya."