believe

what do you do when there is nothing to do but believe in yourself?

believe in yourself always.
believe in God forever.
believe in love because you have to.

there are a lot of good things happening each day. working toward a bigger goal, a better way of life for others. the contentedness of my heart leads me to believe that i am doing just fine. a new faith and a clearer vision have led me to truly believe in the grace of God and the goodness that i am called upon to move with throughout this b e a u t i f u l existence.

life is good. because everything is following the path it is supposed to. i am confident in this.

but sometimes i wish i did not feel so much. i do not wish to feel what others have given me. all things are brought to a person as they should be, with reason and purpose. so, without being regretful of anything i want to not remember certain things. i want to have things taken back. someone else can have them, for they may have never been truly meant for my heart. with no explanation and with no heart, with no human consciousness whatsoever, my heart is easily ignored.

with the good of this world, my world, there is bad. there is confusion and there is sorrow. and someone else may have those too. so today i am giving it all back. and only keeping in my heart the truth of what everything means. i am giving back what sometimes i feel i didn't deserve. but i only know i never have to ask 'why me?' for i already believe that there is a greater meaning to everything. with the pain of experience comes the search for something greater. i am constantly searching for Something Greater, and always finding it.

forgive. and be grateful. if for nothing else but your own heart. know that your world would not be the same with out each and every experience, no matter how difficult or how grand.

i already know i am human, capable of feeling to the depths of my soul. that has already been tested. and from now on, i only wish for goodness.