blue : dreams

there are many things we wish we would have said.
things that would have been better in the moment.
but things we only think of well after the real moment has passed.

there are many things we wish we would not have said.
things said out of haste, out of confusion, out of hurt feelings and love.
often times we find ourselves rethinking the patterns of what happened and reproducing them, only in our heads, as what we wish would have happened.
and this is all we can do for the moments have passed and the only moment we now hold is the one we are in.

regret is not the word.
only the wish to have been stronger or more clear headed during the moments.
nothing ever seems to come out right when we are looking into another's eyes.
hurt fills the heart in ways that don't make sense,
ways that cloud and justify actions that are not normally justifiable.
love confuses and leaves us with nothing but the want to say the perfect thing,
but always with the reality of saying it upside down.

there are many things we wish we would have said or not said.
this may always be true.
sometimes things don't come out right.
the only hope is that we have bore our souls and will be understood through a look and a feeling in the heart, rather than through our chosen words.